my feeling..

i have a wonderful life.. great family.. loving fren and a boyfriend that i love so much.. things just change when i grow up.. thing are different now..
last time i used to angry my parents and i hate them a lots.. till i actually move out.. until i actually went for my matriculation in penang.. only then i realise that my mum and my dad actually love me as much as my bro and sis.. last time i used to get all the scolding when i am at home.. that's is because i am eldest i guess.. so whenever my bro n sis involved in fight.. i will b the one that get all the scolding n canning.. haha.. that's pretty bad.. but now i am finally grown up.. i realise that all eldest are vbeing treated the same.. not just me.. and now when i finally grow up.. i see thing different.. i still 'ti liang' my parent and i honestly love them more as i've change my opinion toward them.. just when u studying so far away.. u will miss them a lots.. but when u reach home and u see them argue o scolidng ur sis n bro.. finally u will hav the feeling.. i wish i am not back home.. that's uman.. why are feeling change so suddenly?? why at 1st u miss them so much that suddenly it can change to hate? sometime human being are really hate to predict... althought i hate them but i do love them.. love them a lots that i didn wanna lose them...
then my fren.. well, fren are meant to come n go in ur life.. in every stage i meet diff people to b my fren.. in convent.. i meet a bunch of wonderful fren that we hang out all the time.. this group of us been admire by lots of junior.. ot's incredible that we manage to stay as a group from form 1 till form 5 although we are in a diff class.. inbelievable rite? then till now.. we nvr break our touch.. we still keeping in touch.. just thing are diff and feeling are diff now.. some that used to b so cl;ose wif me now.. ended up we like a stranger when we meet.. we dunno wat to say to each other.. but we need warm up.. fter a while we will b fine.. thing are starnge.. and everyone are moving to oversea.. leaving so few of us here.. =(b well, guess that's life.. thre's coming and going.. then.. i move on wif my life.. to national service.. and there.. again i meet wif a bunch of great bro n sis.. ended up we didn contact anymore.. when we meet up.. we actually like stranger.. we dunno wat to sayy.. yet we miss each others.. where no words can replace.. it's just 'kekok'... then.. after national service.. i ended up meeting wif great fren in matriculation.. where i really hav a great time.. we were close and thing were great.. it's just the same.. after we dismiss.. we didn contact.. but we will miss each other.. then we will end up talking and staying over at their place.. they are rather hard to meet up.. they are all from all over the country.. then there is the junior matriculation fren.. where there are very nice to me too.. but this gang will seldom contact also la.. haha.. then a.. when we meet up.. we will hav endless topic.. especially meng horng and see mei.. =) then.. after that.. it's come to my uni life.. where again.. i met new people again.. new bunch of frens.. different gang... my study fren.. my housemated.. my college frens.. my activities fres.. and my bf.. haha.. get to know him in uni lo.. from activities too.. feeling are miracle.. things change fast too.. beside all this fren.. i get to meet nicholas fans too.. nvr in my life i guess i would b so close wif them.. like my soul mates now.. we can share prob and we are hanging out together.. guess.. that's somthing pretty great.. =)
then.. my bf.. someone i cherish.. someone i like and love.. and care.. i dunno wat will end up between me and him.. people always say that i am very 'hang fuk'.. as i got someone thati love to b my bf.. haha.. but now.. thing change when he grad and he got to work.. he will b far from me.. i didn know if me and him will survive.. i do hope thing ed up well between me and him.. i hope he actually put a lil effort in making it a success.. people say long distance will only work if the relation had strong foundation.. i dun think i hav.. cause we are new.. so.. bless us.. =)