are u the same person in my mind??

i always thought u would b a very responsible person.. i thought u would at least let me know before u leave me like that.. now i am feeling like i hav no where to turn.. i didn wanna let go yet as i dunno wat ur answer yet.. haha.. i very silly de.. mayb i really wan u hurt me one time.. n mayb i would b angry at u and i wanna let u go.. i hope u would call o even msg... just to let me know.. i didn hope we would end like this.. without a word.. that is so not u.. i didn see the wrong people rite?? i get the person i know last time is still the same.. am i right?? i know i should say like that.. as it.. it's torturing me now.. well, but wat i've said is said.. i think there's no turning back rite??
ling ask me to watch 'tong sam fong pou'.. wow.. the story between the 'xiong joi sam' and also the alfred make me think of u.. i didn know how to say.. alfred put his career at the 1st place.. and the girl feeling n everything would only come after all his work ended.. am i the same wif the girl?? r u going to fine me after u hav settle wif ur work?? all ur work?? o are u planning to leave me like this?? i am so confuse.. i didn know wat should i do.. man.. u know how much i wanted to call.. yet i try not too.. cause i mention to u that i would let u free.. n if i approach u.. mean?? i am not letting u free rite?? i shouldn b that selfish anymore.. n i am selfish enough.. actually i wish u to know that i didn say all this because i dun wan u.. it just i gv u the choice that u wan.. whether wat will b the decision.. i hope i would respect urs.. i didn wan us to hang on just because u think u r responsible to me.. i didn wan to hear u always telling me u r feeling guilty n stuff.. man.. i choose this road.. and when i hang on here.. mean i really willing to continue this journey wif u.. u know me well, if u r the guyy that i dun like n u treat me like this?? not even a week.. i would definitely break up wif u.. but because i actually love u.. i hang on... i hang on.. because of u..