can i actually change my bad habit? i try not to cry and i try to be strong.. but.. it is just very very hard.. today cause something tha daddy did.. i cry.. well, i dunno why i didn shout at my dad and ask him not to shift my stuff.. instead i just cry.. i am so sad about it.. well, i am 21 years old liao.. who wan the parent to touch ur stuff?? who wan ur daddy to throw ur stuff?? last time daddy throw away nicholas poster.. wi signature on it some more le.. i so sad u know.. or that i cry very long n i didn feel like talking to my dad although at the end i did talk wif him.. when today he pack my stuf.. i really scared.. i didn know which of my stuff will be dump by my dad.. i so worry about my nicholas de collection.. my primary school memories.. and also my secondary school de memories.. i kept everything that i love and wanted as a part of my olden day de memories yet my dad often thinking of throwing away my stuff..
i was ok when he shift my study table today.. he wanna do wif it.. ok.. go ahead.. i let u disturb my stuff.. but when he start shifting my nicholas de collection.. tear really come out.. and he shift my toys and my decoration de stuf.. tear really come out.. he was asking me like why did i didn display my stuff nicely?? i was like.. excuse me.. did i hav my own room for that?? i dun.. i've been tolerate.. i let my bro take my room when i shifted to matric and all my stuff was shifted to study room.. then i was in uni.. i admit that the time i am home was limited.. so i share room wif my sis and the room was full of her stuff where there isn any room for my stuf anymore.. i was like.. hello.. where should i display it?? then my dad didn say anything.. daddy hav promise me that he will make me a room.. wif air conditioned and also will make my room bigger.. that was said by him 2 years back.. till now i haven get anything.. on my 20thh birthday he promise me a car.. at the end.. i didn get it also.. well, sometime i didn mind if i dun hav all this.. but beore u can make it a real thing to me.. just dun promise me.. i really HATE people that make their promise but couldn do it.. i really hate it..
i didn wanna cry.. but i just cant stand.. when mummy back,, she ask me why?? i just say i hav noseblock.. daddy.. i know who u r.. that why i didn wanna argue wif u.. u wanna shit thing when u holiday i let u shift.. but just dun throw awy my stuff.. they mean a lots to me that u dun get it.. i know i write here u won b able to see it.. i just feel ad that i think i must write it out.. if not.. i will explode.. i am just.. dunno how.. wan me shift back.. where is all my stuff going to place?? and how am i going to go to school?? how?? =(
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