freindship??

now it's 3.24am.. just finish watching a movie called BRATZ.. i didn know if this is a new movie or it's an old movie.. i just found it in the net and downloaded it.. well, after watching this movie.. i hav lots of.. erm, memories flash back and also mind start to work and think.. wat was the movie about?
well, started of wif 4 school girl that going into high school.. same school.. they were very excited going to school on 1st day.. well, they web cam before going to school discussing everything.. and they all hav diff interest.. one for soccer, one for science, one for cheerleader and another for journalism.. well, life change when they click wif diff group of people.. they will like.. stranger.. but this movie hav a happy ending.. where i think reality dun hav.. when they click wif diff group of people their time seem to unable to match anymore n they didn hang out and when it's hard to arrange time to hang out.. arguement come.. well, they start didn talk to each other until they fight one day n they get back together.. well, will this ever happen in reality?? where although they were force by their click n stuff and their interest put to risk.. like the cheerleader.. hey group ask her to make a decision between cheerleader n her fren.. was this reasonable?? n was this wat today life is?? i bet it is.. people looking down on people.. judge people by appearance and only make fren wif those that popular and they would b able to get advantage from them.. was this something great to do??
reality.. wat am i facing??

CONVENT-we were fren for 5 years in secondary.. and when making decision to go for our further study.. thing change.. eva going for teacher study, y ji go form6, zk, yinng, sf go ucsi.. then sher go mmu, eve go taylor.. yen min go taylor.. pui ling go russia.. wei ann go utar.. then.. i go for matric in penang.. then.. we start to lose our bond.. lost our contact.. then, it come to my 1st year in uni.. i've moved back.. but wat was the diff.. we still dun get to see each other.. o get our bong o gap close up.. n then, yen min start going to aust.. where i really miss her.. when she is in aust.. we start not contacting each other.. again.. well, ya.. wif all the keep in touch n stuff.. all this word was just meant to b said izzit?? o it's actually mean to be done.. i really dunno.. i am not saying that i blaming anyone.. i am saying myself.. why i didn take the initiative to keep in touch when they didn.. why didn i call them out when they didn.. why?? for a while.. i think i abondan this group.. when they didn wanna bother about me.. i didn wanna bother about them too.. but when meet back.. we r like.. stranger for a while.. then, we hav lots to talk about.. i just miss this bunch of people.. last time i always doubted if this frenship would survive.. but yen min, eva, zk and sher and my own incident prove that i could.. prove that everything is possible.. cause we hav a strong base.. and no matter wat.. the friendship arise deep in our heart.. prove that i could always trust them when i need someone.. they would b the one that would understand me.. and there is no one.. i am not going to talk to them again.. even when they dun wanna b my fren i will bug them off.. wahaha.. except.. those that dun wanna b my fren.. then there is nothing i can say.. if i make the effort to make fren wif them n yet they didn wanna bother to make it great.. then, fine.. i dun need u..

KMPP.. the same thing too.. we can be so good and stuff.. but when we are separated into diff uni.. we like stranger.. no msges.. no msn.. no phone call.. nothing.. i dunno how to say wat i feel.. ya.. for a year.. she was sitting beside me in class.. but now.. we hardly hav anything to say.. for a year.. we always go eat together.. in the end.. we didn hav msg from each other.. the only one that is far from me that make an effort to contact me was my dearest zhi zhing.. she always bully me in kmpp.. she make the effort msg me often..

NS.. was the worse i think.. haha.. our friendship bond was weakest.. wat make me sad was now when i see them all.. i hav nothing to say.. i didn know it is becuase i dun hav anything to say to them o it just that we r stranger.. wat make me sad was joel i guess.. he can ask me to forget about him.. forget that i hav him as a bro.. where in camp we were so close and he was treatng me so good.. wat is that?? wat is this person hav in mind about frenship?? i doubted that..

now.. in UNI.. wat was it?? haha.. i didn know.. i didn know if everyone of us will keep in touch.. time haven come.. people will start graduating.. most of my fren of course grad togethr wif me.. SQ.. graduating next year.. me.. will there come back.. will we still keep in touch?? o they will back to their own home.. and not going to talk to me again?? wat can i say?? we dunno.. how is SQ.. haha.. n people that i only say hie n bye.. people that we didn contact.. people that only ask for hw.. and assignment and tips.. will i ever see them after i grad?? doubt at it..

NFC.. wat about this.. fren that i made because of nic.. how many of us actually would come out n gather not because of nic?? i know some of us will.. i done it wif jiayi.. we went for a movie.. and we hav fun.. we talk.. we share sad story.. she was there when i dunno who can i turn to.. she care.. and siao quen.. she come find me although no nic.. she come find me for yam cha and stuff.. jiaxin.. no nic.. after nic.. i didn go.. she n siao quen come my house n fetch me out for supper.. there is all sort of fren.. how can i know which is sincere n which r not?? how??

friendship is fragile.. i didn mean to angry at anymore o wat.. i just wanna express everything in my heart.. i just feel like.. i wanna share.. i wanna spilt wat i think about my friendship now.. i wanna read it back ten to 20 years later.. mayb i will hav a good laugh at it.. together wif my best fren.. haha.. thing just unpredicted.. i know that.. even if we didn msg often.. didn keep in touch.. that really doesn mean we r not fren.. rite??

although we r not contacting, we r still fren..
although we r not contacting, we r still close..
although we r not contacting, but when see o call each other we won run out of topic..
although we r not contacting, we will still think of each other..
although we r not contacting, we still hav each other picture on our desk..
although we r not contacting, we will still seek each other when we need someone..
although we r not contacting, we will still hav our friendship..

I BELIEVE WE WILL.. RITE??