my very last paper.. audit..

EXAM
well, i've been scribling and scribling just now but at the end i deleted everything.. i am stuck.. i didn know how to write out wat i actually feel.. haha.. but i wanted to blog.. this final exam.. i wasn that tension as usual.. well, i think is a good sign ba.. probably because this final exam we hav at least 3 weeks de study weeks.. so make us hav plenty of time to waste.. haha.. well, my advance taxation was the worst de.. i can actually dun care about that paper at all.. studying for just few couple of hours and i went to sit for that paper.. wasn i just to great.. mayb cause that lecturer av given us Q1 and Q2.. the rest of the question.. we feel that no chance liao.. so better dun waste our time and go read again lo.. that was in my mind.. i dunno about the rest la.. now hav to study hard for the last paper.. if possible.. i wish i could at least get an A for this paper.. i wish..

TODAY
just now went out wif xiao qiang, lian siang and also sin rou.. well, very happy le.. chat a lot wif them.. dunno why.. mayb cause they aren my class mates.. so can feel that they aren selfish and they didn gv me any pressure at all.. being wif them make me feel relief.. haha.. o mayb i didn see them very long time liao?? i dunno.. just feel nice..

ADMIRER??
then, today.. i sudd feel that i mightlike someone le.. haha.. will it really be like?? hav i really let go alvin dy?? or did he still hidden in my heart.. i didn know about it.. i feel that i hav 'hao kan' toward him.. well, more than fren.. will we hav future.. wait n see la.. wahaha..

JERK O TRUE LOVE??
there is this guys that i dun like also.. keep coming up and confronting to me.. call me sweetheart some more le.. but.. i wasn anyone to u le.. wat u wan o?? haih.. i say dy de la.. give me some time.. just break up.. dunno wat he wan that he is so rush wanna be wif me.. must b not sincere de la.. wait longer also cannot.. haih.. nowaday de relationship why so fragile de.. why like no eternal love de.. why all is puppy love.. o just because certain people is beautiful.. sigh.. where is all the true love go?? sigh..

PAST..
then, come to the question of having relation.. hav i really forget about alvin.. can we really b fren?? can we really think that there is nothing happen between us? can u take it as nothing had happen?? i really cant.. till now i still cant accept it.. ya.. i am a friend now.. but when asking me to face u.. i dun think i could do that.. i really dun think i can see u again.. for now.. mayb later in the future.. thing would b diff.. who know.. i know u r a great fren.. better than a bf i guess.. i wonder if last time u treat all ur gf the same.. o just me.. u been treating like this.. question start coming out.. did u ever like me before.. i reallly dunno this answer.. for sure i know i did love u before.. i do.. and for now..

CONCLUSION
relationship is something that dunno if i should trust a not.. that is why fren play a very important part in my life.. no matter how great a bf is.. i didn know if he will dun wan me for other girl ma.. if i know he really did that.. i think i will be very hurt.. very very.. why suddenly talk back bout all this.. cause of jun han.. i think he is brave to face his love de failure.. well, no matter wat happen.. the past is the past.. if she didn know how to appreciate.. why should we be sad.. we should be think at the bright side that.. is her lost.. for not having such a great u.. rite?? haiyoh.. i think too much liao.. haha.. wan study liao.. =P

MY COMMENT
i just read a fren of mine de blog.. she is asking if i will write everything that i think and feel in the blog.. will i write all that happen here.. i think i will write wat i think in my blog.. if happen that the person will come and see my blog.. i will still write.. but i won write out the name only ma.. i think this is the place for me to voice wat i think.. if u think i say something wrong.. something not rite about u.. then come forward and tell me.. i think i shouldn hide anything.. anger o anything.. but the fren of mine.. she scare how people look at her.. so it's natural that the answer i get from her that she won write out wat she think will upset people o make people care.. well, i think life is kinda hard if we think about people.. my point: i live for myself.. not for other people.. so i do wat i wan.. as long as i did nothing wrong and i hurt no one.. rite??