wat can i do??

after seeing grandma and hearing opinion from so many people.. hearing my dad's conversation with aunty n uncle.. conversation between family member and doc.. my mind is confuse..
wat can i do beside praying??
wat can i do beside being there but not doing anything??
wat can i do beside crying??
wat else can i do??
can anyone just tell me?? sometime i just feel like dun take this matter in my heart and do my thing normally.. but izzit because she is some close family member that i must care?? she is not the grandma i share my stories and i nvr get to close with her.. this making me slightly regret why didn i spend more time wif her last time.. accompanying her to the hospital make me feel strange.. there aren much to say between me n her.. and she didn even know wat happen to her that she hav to conduct so many test.. undergoing everything just because didn wan her child to worry.. no wonder mummy always say dun wanna hav longer life.. to see herself suffer and making kids worry.. mum's love always is the greatest ya??
honestly i dun worry my grandma so much.. i am worry bout my mum more.. seeing mum day dreaming at home.. doing wrong thing.. worrying about grandma.. make my heart sick.. if anything happen to grandma.. mummy going to be the one that cannot stand properly.. god.. help my mum in this challenge.. in this battle..
i am going to try to be strong.. facing everything.. worst come to worst.. 4 months lo.. if really cant do anything also hav to accept dy de a.. rite?? one of my fren told me.. it might b better not to undergo operation.. cause undergoing operation mean continuing the battle.. there are risk for the operation.. we didn ask if the patient wanna stay wif us to battle o she/he actually wanna leave in peace.. we are just thinking of ourself.. wanting our close one stay wif us......