today is my last presentation for my last year and 1st sem.. well, another sem to go.. but somehow everything ended kinda well today.. =) although it was kinda rush la.. i was not well prepared as well.. i thought that lecturer will postpone it.. since she miss the class last week.. so i though she will teach today and present in replacement class.. but ended up she wan us to present instead of teaching.. so., we present.. well, the 2nd presenter present the same topic as we are.. and the thing they present is slightly diff from wat we present.. somehow i was very worry and feel so wrong.. but my group member confirm wif me that i do it right.. i should hav to be worry.. instead, i should question about their presentation..
brief story: my presentation was about cell phone payment.. beside introducing this, they included the purshasing ringtone services.. which already in malaysia few years ago.. where this cell phone payment hav not been started even in malaysia.. so i didn know why they say this as payment.. mayb they misunderstand the topic and i was worry about my presentation where i was fierce when i question them regarding to their presentation.. which make them really no idea how to answer me.. well, i know i am a bit harsh.. but i wan my points to be clear.. that they misjudge the audience.. so, i'm sorrie if i a fierce.. but i think it was something i should do to protect myself's benefit.. sorrie guys.. i know i screw up ur presentation.. but.. =(
then i go back today lo.. haha.. so happy.. now i am happily staying home wif my mum and others.. =)
but once home talk wif mummy.. somehow i find nowaday when i was home.. i talk a lot wif my mum.. this time mummy told me a bad news.. 'wai po' will only hav a month time.. her syptom started to show.. her body started to bruise without any reason.. body started to get ithcy more n more frequent.. back bone started to ache more than previously.. it was bitter to know how long u hav in ur life rite?? but i know there aren anything we can do and we are still keeping this a secret from my granny.. mummy with teary eye just now tell me that she wish to sleep beside her mum for a night.. i know if this night come.. instead of sleeping.. mum would cry beside her whole night.. when thinking mum would cry.. my tear started to roll down..(T.T) i know how diifficult it is to mum that she is here in kl where 'wai po' is in malacca.. i know if she hav the option she would quit her job and b there wif her mum.. but this would b too obvious to her mum as she still didn know bout her illness..
recently.. i heard from my mum that 'wai po' started to believe in jesus.. somehow she feel comfy when talking to jesus.. somehow she believe in the existance of jesus.. i didn say i dun believe o wat.. just i wish she hav her time to do everything that she wan.. and go with peace.. please dun suffer.. that is important.. mummy wouldn wanna see that.. i would be teary as mum as i am soft-hearted..
no matter jesus or buddha or allah.. or anyone.. just bless granny hav her time to fullfill things that she wan.. and even if wanna take her.. can u please wait till my mumy was beside her?? can u wait her finishing telling evrything she wanna say?? please dun let her go without telling anything.. i can see she love my mum a lot.. she sayang my mum the most.. so before taking her away.. giv my mum and granny a chance.. and all her daughter.. i am pretty sad thinking of this.. i know no one wan this to happen.. but i know no matter if i wanna acccept it a not.. it will still happen.. i just pray no matter to who.. grant my wish before taking her away.. can u??
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