well, after the last post, fayeyin had suggested me to tell someone regarding to wat i am facing.. without seeing her comment.. i did make my 1st move telling people what i am afraid to tell people about.. well, though i didn tell evryone yet.. i just.. couldn tell.. mayb i was too shy and too scare to lose something that i hide everything in my heart.. away from everyone.. which give people +ve thinking of me.. which i should be shameful as it wasn the real me.. well, i hav choose someone specically and with a huge courage i told him.. haha.. and the result was a lil like what i am predicting which make me dun hav the courage to continue anymore.. mayb i was hoping for a lil care.. but i didn get any of them.. which is why i was disappointed i guess..
i hate to hide myself.. i hate wearing mask to survive.. but i guess this is the world being an accountant could not avoid.. and i am sad thinking this is going to be my future and i swear that i wanna change my future.. i am done giving impression that i am multitask.. that i am corporate lady.. that i will marry early and stay at home take care of baby.. strike hard for future.. i also dunno what i wan.. and i think what i write here is a bit contradict as well.. sigh.. i am begining to mumble things i dunno.. better stop it..
well, happy thing is i am going to sushi king today.. haha.. =)
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