final week for my study week..

i think i hav too much seduction around me making me could not really concentrate in my study.. but at least i cover some but not all of my silibus la.. just worry when i step my foot into the exam hall.. wat waiting for me is those question from the silibus that i am notcovered or even o i am not confident in.. then i am dead.. i think doc can pronounce my death on the spot le.. haha..
so far this sem de study week i been spending it less stress than all this while i hav.. every sem i will be spending my study week in pj together with my coursemate in section 17.. it will be more stressful when i see all of them keep studying and studying.. all the time study study and study.. making me really wanted to vomit.. haih.. but this week i am staying home alone.. with my grandma as well.. accompany them.. watching movie and tv and stuff.. time is more flexible and i am more relax now.. thought i might hav many silibus i haven cover.. but i dun hav the scare feeling i hav last time that i didn finish studying after seeing all of the studying like nobody business.. well, everyone hav their own studying style.. mayb they feel safer when they study and study all the time.. didn mean to giv others stress also de.. =) understand.. unavoidable de.. even i hav my own room.. haha.. but i am feeling ok now..
huh.. release from everything.. just got to take care of my bro, my mummy, my garndma.. my wai po.. the rest i will be fine.. haha.. got to baby sit my bro.. teaching him how to score his paper in spm.. got to take care of my grandma.. she have knee ache.. and she is getting older.. from last time we shop together till now she dun hav the energy to actually walk wif us le.. making me feel so bad.. last time when uncle bring grandma go shop he will accompany grandma, now grandma hav to sit a side and wait for him.. when hear this my heart shrink.. plus, grandma tell me he 'suk shui' dy.. my heart even more ache.. haih..
i know it is time for me not to be so tension and so emo.. sometime, i didn know why.. this make me change my mind toward a lots of things.. i might dun wanna go oversea le.. i might just wanna stay here.. i think time spending wif family is the most quality time and i should appreciate it rite?? i am still thinking.. not sure.. after final only decide lo.. haha..
ok.. nest week start final le.. must prepare my mood dy.. hehe.. wish me luck.. and all my coursemate.. and zk having exam next week also.. wish her luck too.. for everyone having exam, final o even spm.. ALL THE BEST my pals..