comparison

i am so tired of people comparing me with others.. why is there this comparison? aren me good enough to be chyeli? why is everyone in the world wan me to be other people.. have the qualities that others have and i dun have.. cant they see the qualities that i have that others did not have? sometime i try to be more confident in myself.. but this confident eventually will go off if people start critisizing u and u nvr have support to build back this confident.. and i am in this stage now.. i been holding to the philosophy that i am who i am and i am unique for who i am.. man.. but how long can i hold this when the rest of the world is judging me with a bias judgement i could say? i cant hold it long enough for me to survive.. it weaken my +ve strengh.. i know not everyone looking down on me.. just there are more people on the surface of the earth that i didn know.. and this people that dun know me will judge me by comparing me with people they know.. this make me feel suck.. i always know in my heart i am better off with something.. just the confident level is decreasing now.. can stop judging me and comparing me?? let me be who i am?? i am trying to be someone everyone like.. but how many people can i please?? everyone is loving diff type of person.. by acting according to what people like is equal to faking.. which is something i didn wish to do.. i just wannna be myself.. i just wanna be happy..
blogging release my tension.. i do hope my confident could come back after this.. i need that to survive tomolo and the future.. may god bless chyeli!!