feelings..

when someone moody, what is the cause a?? i am curious.. waking up in such a nice wetty weather that suitable for sleep.. somehow my day started off moody.. i didn know why.. i know this feeling definitely will re-visit me again on fri cause i will be surrounding by most of my loves one.. and when come to fri where i hav to work and face the world by myself.. that is the moment where i will be moody...
trying to blog to blog my moody mood here and cheerful chyeli can re-appear.. let's revise what i have been doing..
apart of struggling for my career, i didn do anything much except for keeping in touch with several friends where some of them did hurt my heart by not accepting my offer i guess.. well, guess that is life.. what zk say is true.. i couldn predict my liife to be something i want as there are too many un-expected thing that might just drop in anytime..
for the BY-PASSERS of my life.. just by pass lar.. i know i hav few several that sincerely care for me.. please dun take me for granted.. when i am willing to sacrifise.. dun make fun of me.. dun make use of me... when i take my action.. you got to say bye-bye to our friendship.. this is chyeli.. bet people that know me will know this is my attitude.. but for now, i try not to by-pass anyone and i try to make everyone around me happy.. i am just 1 and there are so many people that i care around me.. got to giv me some to reach u dear.. dun push me too hard.. i will run-away.. trust me.. i will..
just this lately when i am surrounded by many people i feel lonely.. i didn know why i hav this feeling.. but this is what i hav.. i am surrounded by laughter.. i am surrounding by people.. but it's weird that instead of warm, i feel cold.. haha.. that is when people start telling me.. "chyeli, u r old lar.." haha..
what a weird post.. but anyhow.. that is the rojak feeling i have.. lonely yet people surrounding me.. haha..
i am definitely looking forward for my convocation.. everyone are invite to come.. cause for me.. i think my friend should be in every stage of my life if possible.. every stages.. that is what friends are for.. not only for self-enjoy, not only for when u got problem needed someone.. but they are someone that should be there for me witnessing my happy and joy moment too.. beware frens, when i get married, giv birth or changing stage of my life.. u guys got to be there.. yes, i am demanding.. but yet, i wan a meaningful life.. life without u guys and my love ones are meaningless.. dun u think so??