mistake..

how far can someone tolerate you? of course here i mean my boss lar.. in term of friends and family i guess tolerate is something that we use daily.. am i right??
well, this week hav been a really hectic one for me as i have done something wrong.. make plenty of mistake that require me to cover.. sometime i didn know how i should react in work.. if i ask when i didn know that people will feel i willing to learn.. or they will think i am lazy as i didn wanna explore all the required and needed information myself.. then if i dun ask they might think i think myself know the best and not respecting them.. but asking them, they look kinda annoy instead of please?? well, actually i understand.. they got pay to work their part and not helping me of course.. that is why sometime i am blank.. that is also why i hav to come earlier to work and go back later.. because i haven master in all the system and everything..
boss didn say anything to me regard the mistake that i did.. i didn know if i were forgiven.. this make me feel bad almost everyday.. =(
i wish i had working experience that could make my world lots easier here.. when hearing friend mention they went out with their colluegues and hanging out and everything.. i envy.. cause i dun think i hav this opportunity as they were all grown up here.. with family and kids..
life with working is not as easy as i imagine.. guess when i start studying for ACCA, things will be better as i will be focusing on my study?? i hope..