i do feel lonely

people tend to feel chyeli wont feel lonely.. but where is the proof of this statement?? haha.. actually i do feel lonely.. sometime i might have my schedule and i might look bz wif my organizer.. but it is not like i acted busy or what, it's just that when i look in my organizer i wanna confirm i am really free that day.. i didn wanna make a promise and ffk later on.. and i didn wanna forget important date or appointment.. that is why my organizer is so damn useful..
but still having an organizer doesn mean i am not lonely..
sometime i am damn tired too.. i love to stay in touch with all friend.. not losing the contact that we used to have.. the cemistry that use to build between us.. but chyeli is also human.. how can u say that u lazy wanna keep in touch and depending on me all the time?? i mean, i need rest too.. can u put a lil effort to keep the relation going.. when this come, i remember the phrase, one hand wouldn make any clapping sound.. we need two party to coorperate in order to make things work..
i am damn tired being the active person that asking people.. why dun u guys ask me now??
i know i am ranting.. because later on when people still not asking me out i will ask them also.. but still, i pray and hope that people will change.. when i am gone, then you will know that you should ask earlier instead of wait...

I AM JUST FREAKING TIRED...