i cant sleep

now i know what is the feeling when evryone try to tell me they will stress out or worry until they cant sleep.. this actually nvr occur to me even when i didn finish assignment that i need to hand on the next day i can easily dose off and get up earlier to solve the assignment until yesterday.. it was my 1st worry and it was the 1st time i couldn sleep with my eye open wide lying on the bed for hours..

what happen is i thought i make a huge mistake in extract datas for my superior.. whih is pretty annoying to me as i hate making mistake again due to the comment that she gaven me.. i didn want her to think that i am so careless and i amnot serious with my work.. when i realise i might make a mistake on the report that i have prepare when i was driving home yesterday night, i was thinking if i should actually U-turn and re-do my report where i think i am pretty silly at that time so i didn turn back..

this didn turn back make me having sleepless night.. i know this might didn sound a serious matter to u guys.. i wasn afraid of being scolded.. i was just really disappointed with myself.. i didn wanna leave bad impression toward my superior of course and i want them to check to "do not have to check my work" attitude... after the appraisal i swear i wanna impress her and change her attitude toward me..

reason why i wanna impress her so badly was because of the appraisal i just have with her.. well, of course i receive a lots of feedback from her which i think some of it is true and some of it wasn. she been judging a book from the cover and few inner pages properly because she didn have the time to finish the whole book so she just read the summary perhaps.. will blog about that feeling later..

anyway, i am glad that i know i did the right report.. which make me sleepy now =P