did not know what i should write as the title of this blog. i reliase that i have ignored my blog for the whole march'10 again. i lost my inpiration. lost the feeling of what i should write in my blog. lost my inspiration. last time i used to write blog because someone somewhere wanted to read my blog, wanted to know bout my life.. and i always think that we should have our own style of writing though i could not make it as funny as some author, or as interesting as well.. i am just wanting to be myself. but more and more people start telling me that my blog entry is somehow a lil too long and my purpose of writing, beside updating my friend about my status is because i wanna express myself.. words are always right.. there is always this saying that "say is easier than done".. i always feel that i did not have to think o care what 3rd party is thinking.. but i am wrong.. eventhough i didn wanna admit this, it is still a fact that i do still care what people are saying toward me.. toward my career, my family.. my everything..

but i guess i found myself back and i will continue with this blogging life.. soon.. after sponsoring myself for acca.. i am thinking of sponsoring myself to a melbourne trip.. then, i will sponsor myself a brand new laptop since the old one spoilt.. going to pamper myself a lil more now.. treasure myself.. pamper me =)