Hear lots people complaining about having double personality friend around them. Yet, I have to make an announcement here admitting that I am those double personality type of person too.
This I realize after near 10 months working here, in my company. (Due to P&C reason, I will not disclose the name of the company I am working in, but I believe tat those who are my friend that ask me out of the concern will know where am I working at now) I feel that I didn act like the so-called chyeli everyone know. I mean, I did change my name when I start working. Does this mean, I carry different personality when I am using different name?
Being chyeli of course is more comfortable. I cant say the other isn me. XXXXX is me as well. But I can feel it is totally different. Of course deep down inside is still the real me la. All the love love thingy is still the same and stuff.
Being chyeli- I just do what I wan. If I really dislike someone, I will really show in my face, I dun like you. stay away from me.
Being XXXXX- I didn like you but I wont pretend I like u, but I won show I dun like you also.
Being chyeli- can say anything that come 1st in my mind.
Being XXXXX- I have to put everything in my head and evaluate if I should say this and I will only say it when I feel save. Not when I feel like I wanted to.
Being chyeli- I normally will be really cheerful, talk a lot when have lots friend around me, eating or anything.
Being XXXXX- I acted so different that I didn say a word during lunch or even working as if I cannot speak. The so call cheerful chyeli has nothing to be cheerful when I am in the company.
If wanna say I am very happy with this company, not really. Just I could see some opportunity for me to make my way up. I used to think how is it feel to go out with colleague, how is it feel to hang out with them, overnight or etc. But as soon as I join, I realize I dun have colleague. I only have myself and all aunty. Well, I dun find age bothering me and I am mixing ok with them, though we aren close and it is unlikely that we will share our secret or have pillow talk or pillow fight. Mayb I am just a lil disappointed because I didn have my dream colleague.
I am ok. Just feel a lil lonely climbing this mountain. Seem like a very long path to go to be walking on it alone.
3 comments:
Or u can say tat is so called professionalism. separate work with personal feeling:)
wa.. i didn know u can say it this way.. anyway, it kinda help in soothing my complex feeling though =)
ei, but i didn see u have this professionalism wor then =P
bcoz i not yet a professional ma:P
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