Letter to alot of people

Dear Friends that still treat me as friend and Friends that already choose to exclude me from their life,


It has been so long since I have this tingling feeling in my heart, the feeling that I miss someone that I could cry right on the spot.
I did not browse FB for a long time. It has been a while I should say. And somehow I see my friend is having their life without me around them, the feeling is, I envy they are having fun without me around them and I am happy that they are filling up their life with joy and fun too. This is why I always say human feeling is always complicated.
I miss u, u and u. It might be really random, but this is what appearing in my heart right now.
I hate growing up. Just suddenly I realize that we will forever be friend but the time we are going to spend on each other wont be the same as what we share last time. It is a lot a lot time lesser. We practically see each other everyday and was on phone too even we meet each other earlier.
Wonder how god arrange things for us. I lost frens which I adore a lot. And they tend to wan me out from their life. Which hurt a lot too.. I try to pretend I am strong, but it wasn just so easy. It is easy when ur life is full, when u have no time to think of them, or when their image doesn appear in ur mind, somehow, somewhere, something or even someone in this world will make u think of the particular person, and ur heart will have tingling feeling that send order to ur eye, to shed a tear..
Miracle how friendship play their role in my life.. I wonder what will I turn out to be, if I was left all by myself, alone, wondering.

Sometime, I just wish to start a whole new life, without having someone I know from the past but that will be pretty difficult rite?

I won say I am regretting my life. But I will add that, my life will be much more colourful and beautiful having u guys in them.. even it is just memory now..

*it is just a rojak feeling I have when I browse the FaceBook. It is feeling dedicated straightly to ~us~, to ns friends and my uni friends.. u guys play the most important roles as my secondary life, my short 3 months life in Kelantan and also few years in um, did appear to be really important moment to me.