scare

what is this powerful feeling that it conquer everyone? though everyone might be worry/scare of different stuff but this feeling of scare nvr leave a single living sole in this galazy i should. cause i think animal might have this feeling too..
lately, this feeling is so strong that it make me a little difficult to breath. have u guys ever have the thinking that when you die you will disappear from this world, that we are not going to re-born? or if we even re-born, we will nvr come back as the same person, same appearance, we might not even come back in the same form. did that worry u guys too? or it actually worry me and only me. or i should use a more serious word. i am scare. i remember i used to cry when i am younger, when i think i might die and not going to be in this world again.. i seriously cry. it is kinda a horrible feeling to have. having to die and nothing is there anymore for u.. u just disappear and memory of course stayng behind with those you leave behind..
Probably it might occur why suddenly i am talking of all this. it is just a random feeling i have recently. probably too much 2012 movies appearing or probably i watch too much of drama that did not contribute to a very nice ending. Not to worry. i just write because i wan it out of me. i wanna behave a little normal. cause this scare feeling kinda freak me and obviously it affect my daily routine.
Probably there is another reason i have this feeling. i am just so confuse and worry it make me couldn think normally.
need some courage please. dear god, send some to me so i can breath easily? (T.T).. This is the very 1st time, i feel like crying.. but i could not find any tear.. i wonder.. where are them now...