happy 12th year friendship day

Dearest member of ~us~

Hie, I actually got lots of things i have in my mind that i wanted to share when i plan to write this simple letter to everyone. well, i guess this would safe some of my energy and time since one posting deliver all wanted msg to everyone. So guys, this is just the only e-letter i have written to everyone.. i didn 'berat sebelah'.. everyone have the equal treatment. it is just that there are certain words i wanted to express to different people BUT since i am learning transparency in my ACCA currently, i decide to practice it here where i will write what i wanted to say to different individual here so u guys know what i say to others too. No secret =) But, since i am so open, u guys also cannot get jealous if the things i am telling u guys is different from the rest. sometime, human being are hard to please. it is hard enough that i have to please everyone around me (especially my bosses) i think u guys will give me some room to just be chyeli rite? i didn wanna be grace rite now =)
back to the original topic. Happy Friendship Day. I know. It is the 12th years if we are counting it from Form One and i know some of u guys know each other longer than this. well, u guys can go ahead and have another celebration outside =) this is merely the 'pertubuhan' of the ~us~ gang. of course along the way people come and go =) Just to tell the truth, i used to have expectation to this friendship, that it should be the way it is. That this friendship will definitely last forever and people will react according to how i want them to react. But real life isn that way. The previous statement is merely naive chyeli de daydreaming. I didn say that this friendship wouldn last too. Just, things change from times to times. Am I right?
Carry the memories of the 12 years we have been together. the 5 years memories that we have sticking with each other during recess and extra ko-kurikulum activities was indeed sweetest in my life. (for now, who know i might have sweeter marriage memory or the moment i gave birth, haha..)
Few thank you i wanna say for the past 12 years:

1. Thank you for the 12 years memories that each and everyone have contributed to my life. Sweet and bad of the memories help me grow up.. hey, i am not so naive and crybaby anymore =) though i still cry but i am more mature and i know how to select time to cry now..

2. Thank you for the ear you guys have borrowed to me when i really realy need them.

3. Thank you for the shoulder, the hugs and the warm you guys presented to me when i feel so lost and alone and didn know what to do

4. Thank you for the time, hearing me out, accompany me, spending time with me. basically thanks for giving some of the spaces in your life to me =)

5. Thank you for the hope you guys still giving me. i didn wanna elaborate here.. BUT thank you

ok. past the thank you ceremony. now i wanted to say fews words to each and everyone. Do not feel offended. i still wanna keep in touch and be friend. and by saying everything, i guess hope we are trying to move to a better stage of friendship. better maintenaince? (too many account term i know =P)

ZK
I am glad we still keep a positive friendship eventhough we are kinda far apart. Well, of course having you so far away and having to spend only a week or few days with u a year seem little. but that does help our friendship grow. I am surprise that you would not be forgetting me when you are there and most important, you shock me when you know how to call my house no when i need your advice.. haha.. stay in touch =)

Eva
hmm, the friendship we share are pretty unique. it is not like how me and zk is. same with her we are separated by land and sea but we do not keep in touch so frequent. During separation, we hardly know what each other is dealing with. but miracle is, our friendship stand strong. I appreciate the time we spent each and everytime when you have holiday and we spill everything that happen in the year of each others present. i wouldn say it is too bad. it is just different way of updating. And of course both of us know that if major things happen that we could not wait till we meet each other, we should remind ourself that we have our internet and phone? and now we have money to get ourself a flight to each other side =)

Syok Foon
I just wanted to say i wanted to chase back the time i lost with you. i mean, i know your life has change and time cannot be dedicated so much to your friends anymore since you got to spare some to your parent and now you have your bf you have to maintain a healthy relationship with him since you have so many commitment. It is just sometime when i am free, when i look back to my album or when i could not sleep at night, i will think of us.. the us when we are back in secondary school. i would not say i remember all the things that we share but at least i remember that we do talk to each other everyday and we will still be on phone after school.. and we still write letter. now think back, i didn know what we talk and write and talk again back home.. so many unfinished stories. I am giving time to each other. we are merely coping with things. But things change, we still can talk when we see each others.. I am just wanting to say I MISS YOU the most among all =)

Yen Mei
All this while you have been closer with syok foon. and probably i am close with her too, we never really too close though we consider ourself quite close?? haha.. i am confuse too.. but, we still see each other and we can talk actually.. just we never make enough effort.. do that in the future? probably we can drag Syok Foon along this time and include her back in our life =)

Yinng, Wei Ann, Sher
i wanted to write the same things to all of you because, right after everyone have their own life, like moving out from Kajang. 4 of us share the most time together. I am grateful that you guys still around as in still near me. I am glad when i am piss of with my work, am having trouble with family or work, a phonecall or a message is enough to drag you guys all the way from whenever you guys are. i specially wanna thanks Ann for this. Having her working in Rawang, she still willing to travel down to PJ during working days to meet up for a drink and dinner just because i say i wanted to or i have problem. This few years is where our friendship really really grow. it grow in term we talk to each other in term of more personal thingy. I am happy with the changes and i am happy with the friendship i have with you guys. No one will able to predict what will happen in the future. But i can see that, we will definitely have each others if we really need?? 3 of you are currently representing the ~us~ gang to take care of me.. haha.. i wonder what will i do without u guys.. I miss the emailing we have in the beginning.. Due to restriction, we are no longer into that routine.. =(

Y Ji
I would not know if you will see this message but somehow i feel disconnect with you. No longer any of us know what you are doing currently. But i would not say that you forget us. being so far away having to work and also study at the same time and earning your own money for study and also work should not be an easy tasks. Am waiting for the day time returning to you where you will have the time in the world to update each and everyone of us with what we have been missing.

Eveline
Faraway in Melbourne enjoying your true love with ... (oops, i forgot what is the name of your future hubby).. should be future la since i see him standing beside you when you get pregnant in my dream.. haha.. From high school we maintain a simple friendship. it is not like we go through everything together and we have never have those deep secret girl talk. Get closer when we got selected for NS and we ended up in the same camp and we are in the same clique. well, distance is to be blame again. of course we will still keep in touch.. and feeling nvr change when you come back and we can chat like we just didn see each other for a days. that is the feeling you giving people my dear.. among so many of us, i feel that you are pretty naive.. i mean, naive in someway not in your selection of wording or activities =P but there is something so pure about you when you share a friendship with someone =) not trying to please you.. am sharing what i am feeling

Pui Ling
Sorry that i say this. all this while i did not make an effort to keep in touch. But, we human being are to improve from the mistake that we had made previously. In the future, i do will try to keep in touch.. Same to you too k??

Jeannie
All along we have consider you as one of us. and i appreciate the beautiful memories that we have when we share in secondary being classmate together. After highschool is over, we barely talk a word to each other, the night when we catch up through phone call is awesome.. We say we should date and spill update about each other. now it is severely months after the phone call yet we still did not hook up.. haha.. Let meet us soon.. we should not be delaying this anymore.. haha..

Hmm, from the above, if i offended anyone, i am sorry. i just somehow feel the want to say whatever in me. who know what happen tomolo. i didn wanna leave the world with regret anymore. i want people to know how i feel and i do want to know what people know about me too. i didn want to live in a fake life anymore. wishing people to tell me if they hate me and i will improve.. I love each and everyone =) I treasure this friendship more than you guys can imagine =) so, i wish this friendship do last and all of us contribute just a little piece of effort, i guess you guys can see a huge different =)
Happy frienship Day.. Love ya..

Lotsa loves and hugs,
chyeli