challenges showering me..

i just wan a perfect family. those that will have dinner together, go for breakfast together, sometime once in a while go shopping together, go vacation together. am i too demanding? 

i am tired.. i am tired of being the only one that try to build what people call as perfect family.. i am seriously tired when i am the only that worry if my family is going to break. i am tired that i am the only one that try to create opportunity for everyone to get together or mayb know each other more, but i am also the only one that will be disappointed when they do not bother, do not care about me..

continuous disappointment and sadness will only push me to dead end.. please dun do this to me. i promise myself, when i am numb, i am going to be away not taking my identity. that is when i am giving up on the world, family anf everything.. off to start a new life all by myself..and i am swearing that i will not be using my name..

Dun Push Me to the DEAD END...