a letter for u..

Dearest XXXXX,


It is time to pack you and store deeply at one of the deepest corner of my heart/memories.
All this while I am not certain bout my feeling toward anyone or even to you. I didn know what it is to like someone or love someone. Or I should make it clearer, I didn know in what condition or how would I feel to love someone.
I didn know why I would have fall for you at the very beginning. Because of you, I have set barrier and min criteria on the next person that I am going to meet after you. Where can I find someone to replace you that I would not compare and still feel that you are better than him? Reason I stick single, izzit because of you? I didn know the answer myself.
Mayb I do still love you, I didn know. But after this, I am certain that I should put you away, mayb once awhile retrieve back the memory for the sake of remembering you and the journey I have shared with you. I should be happy and glad that you have found someone better. I didn regret letting you go. You did not change at all. You still place everything in front of u before your gf. But I get to know more from the last 2 conversation I have with you. I didn know the burden that you hold is that much. I couldn see how much your gf is willing to stay beside you, at least, she is better in handling the situation that I have once faced with you. I could not take it and she can. I always wonder, if I did not let u go previously, how will we end today? but that is silly rite? Even if I know the answer, we would not be able to turn back the time and go back to the time I said that. You know what, I was hoping you will chase me back after I say the ‘breakup’ words. I hope that you at least will change a little for me. Mayb I do watch too much dramas. Things inside the drama, often dun happen to me. I was sad once to let you go. And I will sad again this time cause I have determine to completely stored you in the memories and not putting hope to you again. It will be long. But definitely I will able to put down this matter in the future when I am away from Malaysia?

To the GF, I will let him go and wont stand between you guys, though I know I did not have the power to stand in between you guys. Cause I know him well too. He is just not that kind of guy. He wont betray you. It has always been me, liking him alone. He has always been a nice friend. I wish you well with him. And I mean it. I will attend the wedding if he invited me =) I will be blessing you guys. You got to lock him safely with you ya? Take care of him and treasure him. Wish you both happy and give me some time will ya? Even if I promise I wont steal him away from you, I didn wanna end the friendship I have with him. That is the only thing I have left with him. And I wanna keep it. So as long as I am still meeting him or contacting him, it will require me longer time to let him go. You will understand that rite?

Goodbye precious memory...