my current mp3 list...

currently the below 8 songs has been sitting top in my mp3 list. 

1. 需要人陪

2.兩個人的荒島

3.猜不透

4.错的人

5.心疼你的心疼

6.寂寞寂寞就好

7.就想赖着你

8.只为爱上你

9.突然好想你

especially the 1st 4 songs.. haha.. not that i am in love with anyone or that i have heart broken or anything. more to, i dun have anyone ba.. and envy people can feel love and feel sad too.. at moment like this, i wan to have this feeling. desperately wan it, but i know i can be as selfish, self-centered person. i wan to have the feeling now, i wan people to care now, but at the moment when i feel i dun need him.. i wan him to leave me.. almost immediately i wan him to disappear.. i am that bad u know. was this the reason why i kinda destined to be alone?

nothing happen to me. just a 'wu liao' thinking. it just appear when i have nothing to do and just reading. or mayb i did watch too many drama.. wish people around me can be like those lead male actor in drama. eventhough i wont know what i wan in the future but he will stay right beside me and wait for me.. reality?? haha.. i have no one awaiting me. people seem to giv up hope on me easily. get that feeling after having few feelings. think about it, i wonder sometime if my heart is made of steel. 

probably this is another reason, everyone thought i have plenty of friends, life fill with joy and happiness.. no loneliness and etc... bz bz and bz.. meeting people, gathering with people.. but sometime, i feel double the loneliness people normally would feel. why? i didn know how to elaborate. songs seem to be my best companion currently =)