grandma

it has been ages since i last share on my feeling toward my grandma..i did not have the courage to write anything here. can say, i didn wanna feel sad ba... and i am still putting hope on things that might not be happening anymore.. but still, i carry that hope in my heart.
but reality is reality. i have to face it eventhough i didn want to face it. Grandma is not consider sick anymore. As someone suffering from stroke, she can be consider ok. However, the grandma did not want to coorperate with us making everyone's life like hell especially my aunt that taking care of her. She has been undergoing continuous acupuncture service and western doctor visit. physically doctor and the acupuncturist say that she is fine. she is healthy and she is getting better. But, reality is she isn getting better. probably she is giving up. she didn wanna cooperate. she has been screaming all the time, just like mad lady.. she is torturing everyone mentally..
Until today, my mum told me that we need to giv her medication in order to let her sleep.. to let her not screaming.. What i should do? i really dunno. Last time, i always tell myself that i wanna keep my grandma around me, wait for me to get married. but if she were to stay like this, my heart sour when i see her.. it would be cruel if i say i wanna end her life, but if she were to live this way, i think i rather let her go. not for the sake of everyone of us, but for the sake of her.. seeing her life this way everyday make my heart painful.. serious serious..
God, can you please advice me??