1st day..

looking at this empty screen for a while.. dunno how to write.. dunno how to start.. was staying at home all day today.. at 1st... i was suppose to go kedah for meeting de.. but because of him.. i didn go.. thought that he would come find me and gv me an explanation.. but look like.. i assume it wrongly dy.. he didn come find me.. yet, he decide that we should end.. because of his guilt feeling.. so.. make me staying at home this weekend lo.. =)
then hav nothing to do.. so now watching movie lo.. i watch 'tong sam fong pou'.. well, from last time i've been watching this movie.. but i didn finish the movie.. then, during my birthday he say that he like this movie.. i didn come n watch also.. so now.. finally i hav time.. so i watch lo.. ah ling say i will b very touch watching this movie de.. now watch till 'xiang joi sam'.. break wif her bf.. know that her bf been wif her best fren.. i feel bad about it.. i think i willing to lose the guy.. but i really dun willing to lose my best fren.. anyhow.. fren play a very important role to me.. plus if let say a guy can like my best fren.. that guy wasn a guy worth me keep loving anymore.. so.. i still wan my best fren stay wif me.. forever..
well, dull day hav ended.. well, i still manage to survive de.. i won die without anyone.. so far.. now in my life.. 1st priorities i would gv it to my family.. 2nd, go to my best fren, 3rd, my priorities would gv it to nicholas.. haha..
hope tomolo day will b better la.. tomolo i will go out wif nic fans club de member lo.. haha.. having them wif me was a treasure and also can add a colour in my life.. well, nvr regret supporting nic.. well, even without nic now... they would turn out to b my best fren too.. at least some of them are sincere.. love everyone that care about me..
well, every baby and frens that care me and worry about me.. dun worry.. i will b happier.. i promise.. life will still go on.. well, i think i can continue b ur fren de.. in the future.. to b frank wif u, if wan me to face u now.. it will b a lil hard.. but gv me some time.. just gv me some time..