back to pj.. my home sweet home ma??

do i actually hav a home sweet home?? hav i??
is pj my home sweet home?? i was staying wif my coursemate here and yet i hav to be very independent.. and i am staying far away from my family.. my mummy, daddy.. grandma.. sis.. everyone of my family.. yet.. it is happier ma?? and in pj i hav to scare that there would b break into my house n i would lost everything.. there would b.. anything possible.. as people say s17 is not safe.. am i safe here?? is this where my home sweet home is? but beside all this.. i did get my freedom.. freedom of doing everything i wan..
my real home.. which suppose to warm me.. make me feel happy n sing fu.. feel not alone.. feel pampered.. yet.. today only mummy nag.. nag the whole day.. sometime.. i know mummy need to express herself.. but the way she is expressing herself was rather ridiculus dun u think so?? it was her worker fault but she is letting go all her anger on us.. well, mummy.. i understand that when u work u hav stress and stuff.. and i was home n studying for my exam.. do u think when i see u like that i would b happier and i could study better.. what i can do when i am at home i did it.. then, u still wanna nag me?? all the time u also will say that when i am home everything that i could do i will.. but when i am not at home u will do it alone.. still.. tat is not enough that u hav to nag me everyday when i get back? come on.. mummy.. i need some break.. some air to breath.. i know u didn mean to nag me.. i know u sayang me.. when u nag me.. i need a place to release myself also.. i am not angry wif u.. i am just.. wanna say out.. wan me to say in front of u.. i cant.. i just dun wanna b those bad girl and tell u wat u shouldn do.. i dun wan u to not feel like mum.. i will b fine when i just express it.. and sometime i really dun like u saying that u dun hav anyone to count on when u grow old.. and i dun like u saying that u dun wan to live so old.. i just dun like to hear this.. please dun say it.. again.. can u mum?? i hope.. someone could gv my mum dream of this..
i would b more than happy if daddy not throwing my stuff.. habis all my beautiful boxes and plastic bag being throw by him.. luckily that day i was home.. if not.. my nic poster.. dunno if they would b safe ma.. i think if not because of my tear,.. daddy sure display my cd outside liao de.. case i told daddy.. cant touch that n my voice was really shaky.. so.. i think he know ba.. last time when he throw away my poster i cried and i barely wanna talk to him.. and he feel very guilty.. thought that he wouldn touch my stuff again de la.. manatau.. this time when i am at home somemore le.. i wasn angry.. i know when u at home, when u holiday.. u feeel a lil bored.. ok.. i let u shift and clean if u like.. but just dun throw away my stuff.. just place it back.. pity me that i dun hav my own room dy and the room i hav now being conquer by my sis cause i am studying outside.. so please.. just setakat shift around.. dun take my stuff out n display anymore.. it's almost half the display item in the living room is my stuff.. sometime i think if i really shif.. i wan back my stuff.. wat is the living room gonna look like.. sigh..
anyway.. conclusion.. i love u.. mum and dad.. but i am a big girl now.. just treat me as a big girl instead of small kid will ya?? i will still wan my own house n my own bed.. n my own everything to b my sweet and comfy homesweet home.. i wan b there whenever i hav holiday as there is where my real home is.. can u make me feel that way instead of feeling i dun wanna belong there??