treasure??

was viewing siewying blog just now when i come across the topic.. treasure.. make me wanna blog something regarding what i currently feel about treasure...
somehow when read siewying's post.. i feel i very bad.. didn know how to treasure stuff till i actually lose them.. best example would be my grandma.. last time when i was young, i use to can talk to her.. when i got younger and the chances me going to malacca visiting her are slimmer.. i didn talk much to her.. sometime during cny when we were there visiting i didn even talk to her.. only call her.. and wish her gong xi fatt cai.. that's all.. so bad rite this grandchild..
think back.. now when there wasn much time left.. i realise i didn do much wif her..
i didn tell her secret
i didn sleep wif her
i didn hold her hand
i didn bring her out
i didn drive her before
i didn buy her anything
i didn phone call her
i didn cook her even a maggi
i didn manja her like manja my dad's mum
i didn sayang her like i sayang my dad's mum
i didn hug her before
i didn make her anything
i am so bad.. i didn know why my relation wif her are so bad.. i mean.. we barely talk.. was it because i didn go to her house often.. though we weren close.. i couldn say i was not sad hearing all the bad news.. i am bad.. but i truly feel sadder when i think my mum going to be sad instead of thinking my grandma is going to be dead.. i sometime feel humiliated that i hav such thinking.. very very humiliated with myself.. but i cant control.. i wish there are much time for me to re-play my role as a grandchild.. but that was a lil too late rite??
thinking of that i treat my dad's mum even better.. caring her more.. buying her dvd to watch, bring her go dinner and lunch.. talk to her before she go to sleep when i go back home.. bring her go cinema watch movie.. bring her go eat her fav sushi and others.. didn wanna feel regret anymore.. i just wanna do better.. start acting like a grandchild now.. a responsible and good one.. sorrie tat it was too late.. hope god can let me amend my mistake that in the next life we will be grandma and grandchild again and that time we can be a very close one..