last week in my uni life

this is officially the last week of my uni life.. i say it's official though i think i left uni last sem.. mean last year.. as the bond i have with uni now was like zero.. i only got to uni 2 days in a week times.. and i didn bump into any coursemates except for those that take the similar subject with me? and of course.. there is only ling ling that i see the most among all my uni coursemates.. even my housemates where we stay in the same house, we didn hav time to spent with each other.. couldn blame anyone for that.. it's just everyone hav their time for themself and also their bf i believe.. =)
heart turn sour this week as i really going to attend my very last class this wed and that's it.. i am not going to have anymore class in um.. i am unofficially graduated from um.. gosh.. it was a lil fast and it's kinda freaking me.. i hav a lots of feeling now..
1. scared
i guess i am freaking out as i am officially going to work in the real world.. all this while i did working part time.. that was also because i wanted to have my own money to spent and i didn wanna burden my parent.. so it's not like i really really love working.. if comparing working.. i really like studying.. things we see are different and we get to meet at least true-er fren in the uni compare to working place.. am i rite?
i am freaking cause i am afraid that i might choose the wrong route for myself.. i might end up in the field that i didn wanna end up in.. and i scare i expose myself to other alternative and when i wanna go back to the ori road i might be too late.. i really dunno..

2. lonely
actually i started to have this feeling after i move back.. could say by end of last year this feeling follow me.. well, frens that i hav always mixed in uni i been seeing them rare.. well, of course there are some of my frens that graduated earlier.. and i could say in a small amount of 8 peoples that used to hang out almost everyweek.. of course for the purpose of doing project.. i have only 3 of them contacting me the most.. the rest seem to disappear.. they did not keeping in touch wif me anymore.. i didn know which is sadder.. sad cause i make and effort to contact with them and they didn wanna contact with me? or it is sadder when i say i gave up and i didn wanna keep in touch with them anymore.. gosh..
and so my best fren in uni.. i didn know if i was her best fren.. sometime.. the feeling of envy will appear in my heart cause i know she hav a lots of fren as she is staying in college and she still mixed around with people in her college and we were used to be with each other no matter what.. but things change this sem as we been in diff level i guess.. we didn keep in touch as much as we used to anymore.. and we didn hang out as we used to hang out anymore.. i didn know what will happen in the future but i do know i didn wanna lose this 5 years de fren i guess.. wow.. tear start foaming.. damn it.. and so when i say this.. i mean to send it to the person that have always sit beside me since matriculation and we have been having the same rumour for 5 years that we are couple? i didn wan everything to end for sure.. how long we could keep everything survive it's a lil hard to say rite?

3. miss

well, of course i will miss this life.. and i was just starting to get close with some people which i really regret i didn catch up with them any sooner.. u guys will know who when u see this.. we catch up a lil in accounting night, facebook and blog.. haha.. it's hard to believe we have this feeling i guess.. and everything is coming to the end where we will start seeking out future path.. world is wide.. no one will end up in the same spot.. twice.. cherish is the word i could say.. as i said, we might only get to meet when one of us get married and that also if u guys invited each other rite? this word specially dedicated to wei huang de.. haha.. =)

wow.. i have a lot of unexpressed feeling.. i didn know how to put my words here.. i know university is just one of the stop in my life.. and of course there will be more stop in the future.. =) and this stop will always stay close with me life the stop i hav in matric and also the stop i have in convent.. i couldn keep in touch with everyone.. but as long as i know i did my best.. that is enough rite? and i believe miracle do happen.. miracle happen in me..

the journey that i have been through in my 4 years in UM

1. the college that i stay during my 1st year
- i didn mixed with people much when i was in my 1st year.. i didn know why.. but i was more to myself compare to mixing with others.. and i mixed with ling more.. overnight at her place more that time..

~my room back then~

~people in college~

2. activities outside um: SQ activities
-well, joining this group change me a lot and i grown up here.. thanks to fellow member that help and add colour in my life.. u guys add many many colour into my life u know? though we might not be as close as we used to now.. but all this will stay with me.. forever..

~SQ members from UM~

~SQ in action~

3. activities in uni, UMAC activities
- i wasn very much active in uni activities.. not to say my own accounting club activities.. i dun hav time for more.. SQ took most of my time last time.. i spend almost all my time there.. =) but i still join several.. =) not to be pasif rite? haha..

~group of people that run the same act with me..~

4. people that i stay together for 2 and a half year.
- this is bunch of people is the group that i will miss most after my uni life end.. i hope we do keep in touch.. we still hav an unfinish trip.. to ipoh remember? and i wish we will have the chance to fulfill it in the future.. =)

~our outing~

~our choice of reunion dinner: always steamboat..~

5. my best fren
then, there are 2 of my bestest fren in uni.. well, we stick close together after we were in uni i guess.. i was close with both since matric.. it is weird how fate brought everyone together actually.. well, this are the person that i dun wish to miss in my life.. haha.. and they are someone i will cherish.. =)

~ling and thiam san~

i am really crying now.. gosh.. i am so so going to miss this life of me.. everything change from times to time.. even friendship.. all i wish is our friendship is solid enough to survive and not break in the mean time where we were separated and in the process of growing up? =)

i love everyone.. really really love.. =)