crying in the office

nvr i imagine i will cry this way.. haven even a month i start working and my tear just burst out.. well, it got nothing to do with my work, my colluegues nor my boss.. just some stupid idiot that make me cry..
having have to face evrything by myself.. i am pretty sure i get tense up easily as there are so many deadline i need to face and also workload i need to face.. not to mention all this build up my tension.. i am worry i am not good enough.. didn do my work good enough.. not good enough to be in this company.. it make me even more worry when this stupid position i am sitting on it based on a contract.. a year contract.. honestly i am damn worry that they might not continue in using me despite my boss confidently tell me that this will definitely be a permenant position.
haven really go into the big topic on how my tear cant stand and come out.. basically i think my working load that cause all this to me.. being this my very 1st job and nothing like this encounter me before.. ya.. why not.. crying seem to be the easiest way instead of holding back.. i have too many pressure on my shoulder. but of course i didn do anything wrong..
story: it is all started when i was damn bz with my daily work.. trying to cope with everything and IT's LUNCH HOUR.. i do not hav to answer the phone at all.. but i did.. i am good u see.. then he wanted to talk to someone that i haven heard the name before and i didn even know how to pass the phone to anywhere where i need to consult someone.. i try passing the phone but i didn know what happen that the phone got cut-off..
then he called back with angrier tone.. and of course i try my best to help him and he keep telling me that i cut his phone off i just say i am sorrie and i will try to pass it back. ok.. then i try to pass the phone but it went off again.. what happen next is best describe with conversation..

chyeli: hello
mr. rude: u cut my phone again.. this is the 2nd time..
chyeli: i am sorrie
mr. rude: i am calling from penang u know.. it cost me so much to call and stuff..
chyeli: i am sorrie, i pass the line and apparently i think she is not around her place that the phone die off..
mr. rude: no.. it didn die off.. it sound like it is purposely cut off..
* at this point i didn know what i should do or say as i really didn cut his phone.. i just did what people tell me to..
mr. rude: can u just pass the line
chyeli: i am sorrie.. it seem like people are all out for lunch
mr. rude: what do u mean by lunch? it's 12pm
chyeli: ya, our lunch time is 12pm
mr. rude: continue nagging that he wanna talk to **
chyeli: *colleugues ask me to send the call to receptionist.. so i did..

GUESS WHAT!! the phone went off again.. and without even 5 mins, he called back.. i was damn nervous but i know it's him.. and i cant not answering it i think

mr. rude: this is the 4th time i calling and u keep cutting me off.. i am really angry now..
chyeli: i am sorry but i pass ur line to the respective line but i think everyone are out of lunch
mr. rude: r u new here?
chyeli: ya
mr. rude: u should get proper training before u start working u know.. dun use my bills to pay for ur learning fees.. u should do ur work correctly instead of telling me u r new.
chyeli: *keep quiet
mr. rude: ask other people for help la since u r new
chyeli: *apparently i did ask for help and my colleugue guide me.. problem is there aren any end user to listen to his phonecall.. just he dun get it..
mr. rude: just dun touch anything and ask someone that could help to pass me my line..
chyeli: *i try telling him that it's lunch time.. but..
mr. rude: just dun do anything and call others to help me..

then my senior i guess come to the request.. he is screaming to my senior and was scolding me.. somehow at that point i cant take it though my senior try to protect me by saying that it wasn my job.. telling that he called the wrong direct line.. and he is freaking rude.. at the end of the conversation.. he told my senior.. thanks for not helping at all cause at the end, we didn manage to pass his line because it is really our lunch time..
i know it's a small matter.. somehow today de chyeli cannot accept that fact and the tear just come out on their own.. lol..
i need u pal.. if u know who u r.. =(