after the weekend escape.. haha.. i was back to my life again, handling the same prob again too.. but this time with a diff feeling.. i got much better and i am more relax now.. learn a phrase from one tree hill.. didn know if jiayi will feel the same phrase meaningful ma since she already finish watching the whole series..
learn it from a character name jamie which is practically a very young boy.. the phrase ryhme this way.. "people need to cry because they need to cry out all the tear in their heart in order to enable the heart to fill with laughter.." mayb u guys think that this phrase is normal nothing special.. but it did sound a lil for me as i am a crybaby myself.. =)
for frens who are worry, u guys know i will be fine.. i am just needed some break on my own to start thinking and rasionalise all the situations.. and when i finally manage to analyse and calm down.. things will be better.. it is just bad when i am in the middle of the analyse and rasionalise status.. haha..
and he is officially back to my life.. i didn know what the feeling is.. but i know what i feel definitely more than a normal fren but still haven reach the lovey feeling.. haha.. feel strange to have him back, feel strange to talk to him on the phone, feel strange that he care for me.. it's feel strange even having him sit beside me.. wondering.. i did try to avoid him.. but somehow, there we are ending up in this i feel awkward he feel nothing situation.. is god trying to fool me, to make me realise the bad decision that i have made few years back?? trying to make me realise how foolish i am to let go?? or is god trying to tell me i am wise letting it go?? i have complicated feeling.. but this shouldn be on my way as it is not something i should focus rite now..
go go chyeli...
p/s: idol is out of hospital.. thanks for those that pray and thanks for all the friend that msg me and ask about his condition.. i am glad i make idol as a symbol of me as when people see nicholas, they think of chyeli.. idol, take care la.. i will see u in 2010.. =)
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