I am sorry that i lied..

I think everyone do right? I am not sure. But I feel bad cause I have said a lies previously that I feel really bad right now.

Sometime, we human being will give some reason to ourself to tell lies. Like letting others know that we lies because we want the best in that person? But was it a reason that give us valid excuses to tell lies?
What with those that lies because all the lies protect ourself? Is this a solid reason too?

I wanna make a confession here that I tell a lies last week and I dun feel comfortable about it yet I didn have the courage to clear the air between people that I have already lied. I am sorry I should say but I really didn mean to say so, I am really trying to protect myself.
Let just say that I met someone in the mountain I am currently in. And we become friend and due to rain, I stayed with this person just to wait for the rain to stop, while doing so, he/she show me something precious to her/him. Let say it is a pen. And it is a gift from someone special to him/her. And I have the urge to write, and I did not have my pen and I borrowed. While writing, I somehow accidentally broke the cover of the pen. Then instead of admitting my mistake, I blame probably the monkey or the squirrel.

I didn mean to do that. And I know right now, if I confess, he/she will forgive me though it is important to them. Of course he/she will angry. Anyhow it is her/his precious pen rite, but I know after a while, my anger too will fade off, so will his/her. And we can become friend again. Without torns in our heart. But I choose to lie, and that torns remain in my heart though it might not in her/his heart.

God, Give me the courage to improve myself, that I shall not do this lying thingy again?