i have been looking at the keyboard for awhile and i din know how should i start typing on this post. i just wanted to get everything out of me. well, it is worst day of my life. i didn know that the emotion can change so fast. it's like someone bring u up to heaven while u enjoying the scenery, the place you stand suddenly got hole and you fell down.
yesterday was my birthday. while i was stupidly enjoying the celebration, my grandma fainted at home. no one bother to tell me anything till my cousin bro called me. and i was still feeling happy thinking that he called to wish me happy birthday. when he mention bout my grandma, i instantly feel the time has stop. my heart.. i called my daddy and daddy told me they didn know what wrong and she is hospitalized for further checkup. i stay behind work till i cannot take it i went home and decided to go see my grandma.
i cant describe the feeling i saw her. she was tube like those in the movie. the only different is she is my grandma and she is real. tear come to me when i see her lying there not opening her eye and she is fine yesterday. i cannot take the fact that she changed just in a day. been having her lying beside me everyday. it seriously make me sad when i realise i didn spend so much time with her anymore after i start working late shift.
doctor say that there aren anything i can do to avoid anything. she might be recover but she wont be the same. or she must just leave me.. will i wan her to be with me and suffer or i am ready to let her go?
i really dunno and my heart is in a mess. when i go i see the empty bed. i didn know what i should do. i didn manage to control my stupid tear. it just fell..
what am i going to do now?
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