grandma on 4th day

my fine and the doctor fine is not the same. some fact that i have yet manage to digest.

doc's fine: as long as she is breathing, she dun need any help in breathing and the blood pressure is fine, she is fine..

my fine: i wish that my grandma will stand up like usual, get up like usual and wish that she still can talk, eat and walk like usual.. i wish that my grandma will still be like how she is before she fall sick. 

but the fact is, we are following the doc's definition. the doctor kinda tell kinda cruel thing to us, we as family member. the doctor say she will never be like how she used to be. this is how she will be in the future. i always try to think positive. lots people got stroke before. but they do recover. just the doctor say age play a very important part. she is 84 and the rate she going to recover is kinda remote. often we hear people standing back up after serious stroke and everything, but when doctor dun even give u the confident tht she will going to be better, it hurt. it hurt a lot. especially when the doctor say " this is how she will be".. or when the nurse say "tak tahu kan sampai bila dia akan baring macam ini".. it is seriously like taking a knife and cutting my heart..

so this is it? my grandma going to be like this? i have imagine her leaving me. certainly not like this. not like this at all... what should i do now?? (T.T)