the doctor says..

well, when we were younger, we believe what parent say.. i mean they didn trick us on purpose but they just want us to be good i guess and learn all the good things instead of the bad one.
last time, daddy used to say.. "get sick already, see doctor then take medication, everything will be fine.." at that point of time, all of us is still so young, we wont be thinking we will be dying or there is any illness that unable to be cured using medication or after a doctor visit. until when we grow older, we started to learn more about the magical and miracle of life, at that point of time, i guess all of us understand that, life isn in our hand.. it is all belong to god and he determine how our life going to be although a big portion of it are determine by us, but we could nvr figure out the final result on our own =)
daddy brought grandma for a doctor visit yesterday. well, nothing much doctor can do to her condition. no medication nothing to help. it is all to god now. The doctor say, grandma's mindset is back to kiddo. we have to treat her as a kid now.
You know what the saddest part, it is when my uncle drive her around in the car, back to her old house, she seem ok. but when the car reach outside my house, she struggle wanted to come down like a small kids. and when my uncle did not bring her down and insist on going back to my uncle place, she cry. it hurt when i hear she cry. i know her for my whole life, my grandma is definitely a strong person. when grandpa die, when her sis die, she did not shed a tear. but to shed tears when seeing my house.. it mean a lot to me, i think she miss us.. some part of me wish that she is still her.. she is still having her own thinking eventhough she is paralyse due to the stroke.
how i wish there isn something call stroke in this world. either dying or live back in this world..

it does not only hurt her.. it hurt everyone that love her as well =(