one litre of tear

i guess the above title is pretty familiar to everyone as it is a hit drama quite a no of years back. i did not watch that drama when it was very hit back then. and yes, silly me, watch it yesterday during my exam leave. just a day to finish the whole drama.
of course, as expected, tears fall continuously and i could not even control them. like what her sister say, if i were to get such disease, i would not know hot to face the world.. i would not know how to smile to the world.. i would not know how to hav the courage to go to school.. i would not know how to care about others feeling as that moment, i would think that my feeling would be the most important things in the world cause i am the sick one..
of course, to have such a positive thinking, positive mind, she have to have supportive families and supportive friends around her. probably because of all this elements, it molded her to be who she is back then. i would definitely wish for a chance to meet this girl in person. probably not meet but to just look at her how she face the world.
what i like the most is "we are not the only one in pain".. when we always complain the world mini-est problem or sadness and we are complaining we did not wanna live and etc, but here people are trying to live and trying to fully utilize her life in order to help people and not just wasted them. how many of us can do so? one in million i guess..
i wanted to read the above book. i did not know if i could search it in the market. but i would try to look for one that translated the original diary. if not, i shall learn how to read in japanese. haha. i do think big. what also i wanna learn. but this is life rite, it didn limit us to stop learning at what stages. as long as we have the interest, i believe we should pursue it.. this would not be in my recent resolution yet. but i would not forget that i wanted to read u.. i will mark it in my "to read book".. i believe.. my mini library, some time in the future (i could not guarantee when) will have this book in the rack =)

aya,
you might not be able to read what i am writing to you already. didn know where you are now. whether if there is re-birth thingy or you are still staying in heaven, watching your love one, i just wanna say, i am impress by how you look at your life. of course, this isn something you are facing yourself. i do believe, the roommate of urs is a great person too. just that she did not have the fate like you to show to the world how this illness torture someone or probably it affected you the most cause you were the brilliant student and the stud that excel in the sports. being beautiful and smart and you were force to forgo everything you love in this world, and the way you bring yourself to face everything and the impact you have brought to everyone.. your sis, asou-kun, dr.mizuno.. this 3 being affected the most by you i guess. of course, it wouldn work if you do not have such a great family =) i am proud of your sister and brother seriously. i wish my bro and sis would love me as much too.
you would agree with me, mum being the greatest person in the world. guess it hurt your mum the most when she could not do anything to help and see-ing you suffering. i salute her, aya.
i believe, you do still live in everyone heart.. and you will live on forever like how u say before you die =)

regards,
chyeli